when you're in love with something, its really hard to let go. even if letting go will do you so much good.
I love being young. I love being an undergrad (despite the whining during crunch seasons). I miss goofing off at times I shouldn't. But now I really really have to grow up. I work in a place full of grown ups. Everyone seems busy being a grown up. Juggling responsibilities. Making future plans. Thinking about ways of making more money. Marriage. Politics. World news. Cars. Sports. the economy.
back then it was so simple. but now, its like the whole world is on my shoulders. I held a share of public responsibilities. I had grades to improve (not mine), postgrad progress to report, financing, paperwork, documents to sort and stuff like that.
holding on means i wont be going anywhere. I need to go somewhere. it will a matter of time before this leads to regression.
Ultimatum: I must grow up. FAST.
Right now, I'm still a young and whiny little boy. I always thought this growing up thing is something that happens gradually over time. I would ease into it and wouldn't realize I did. Unfortunately, it happens right now. An active and conscious process.
I'm not ready but i will soon be. It takes practice, just like everything else. the sooner i get over this, the better (nooo!)
Regardless of the stupidity and vulgarity turns a lot of people off, that Stepbrothers movie made perfect sense.